Straight from my journal, live and in living print.
12/9/11 5:54pm
Have you ever been scared to be happy after you’ve been discontent for a long period of time? I’m petrified of feeling great again because there’s nothing like having the rug pulled off from under you and falling thousands of feet down a jagged, rough, dark pit and hitting a cold bottom hard- especially if that happens repeatedly in a short time. Yes, they say the best thing about being at the bottom is that there’s nowhere else to go but up, but once you get up….the direction down is a lingering option. Some of the most traumatized people can’t enjoy being “up” once they’ve arrived for steadily working in a paranoid manner to stay “up.”
12/9/11 5:54pm
Have you ever been scared to be happy after you’ve been discontent for a long period of time? I’m petrified of feeling great again because there’s nothing like having the rug pulled off from under you and falling thousands of feet down a jagged, rough, dark pit and hitting a cold bottom hard- especially if that happens repeatedly in a short time. Yes, they say the best thing about being at the bottom is that there’s nowhere else to go but up, but once you get up….the direction down is a lingering option. Some of the most traumatized people can’t enjoy being “up” once they’ve arrived for steadily working in a paranoid manner to stay “up.”
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